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just because I miss your perfect smile.
“I’m still a kid. I’m like six years old. But it’s just a matter of wanting to get up, it’s just a big journey. I felt like when I left home that I was on a journey, and I still am.” - Heath Ledger (April 4, 1979 - January 22, 2008)
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in honor of Heath, these are my two very favorite pictures of him. he has the greatest crooked smile ever known to man. RIP 1-22-08. you are soo severely missed.
R.I.P. Heath Ledger (4 April 1979 – 22 January 2008)
“I’m not good at future planning. I don’t plan at all. I don’t know what I’m doing tomorrow. I don’t have a day planner and I don’t have a diary. I completely live in the now, not in the past, not in the future.”
I remember that when Heath Ledger died it was a Tuesday. My best friend at the time told me over AIM. I think I checked Wikipedia to see if it was true (have I really been using Wikipedia that long?).
I felt a sort of cold, crushing feeling. There was an especially awful horror in the fact that Brad Renfro had died just one week earlier. Two actors in their twenties passing away in the space of one week was unreal.
but when I heard that Heath Ledger died, there were two memories that immediately came to mind:
- my 7th grade social studies class watched The Patriot and while watching the film I had a vague sense that Mel Gibson’s son was Heath Ledger, “the teen heartthrob.” That was probably spring 2005.
- the time I was at my friend Ally’s house with a bunch of other friends to celebrate her fourteenth birthday. It was the night of the Screen Actors Guild Awards, January 2006. At the time I wasn’t yet really into awards season and what have you - I watched the Oscars but it wasn’t that big a deal - but for a few minutes I was in Ally’s kitchen (I think?) where a TV was on and the Best Actor category was up. I remember seeing Heath Ledger and thinking something like, “he should win.” I don’t know why I thought so - at that point I’d still only seen The Patriot - but for some reason I thought he looked like he deserved the award. A nice face, I guess.
not long afterward I watched 10 Things I Hate About You on YouTube. I loved it, of course. Then there was the summer of The Dark Knight, a film which I remember being excited about before Heath died, even though I don’t think I saw Batman Begins until right before TDK came out (unless the July that I saw it was actually July 2007? I don’t know which at this point).
but I have not seen any other Heath Ledger films besides those. No Brokeback Mountain, no Casanova, no Candy. I have A Knight’s Tale on my instant queue and perhaps that will be enjoyable; I tried watching Two Hands back in November, though, and stopped only eight minutes in.
I could say that I was simply too tired to keep watching, but I think the real reason is that it’s still sort of painful seeing Heath Ledger’s movies. The Dark Knight, 10 Things I Hate About You and The Patriot are manageable, but it may be a long time before I can watch him in other things without remembering what it was like on that January afternoon when I was fifteen.
When Michelle is asked during the interview if she imagined that she and Heath would one day get back together, she gets visibly upset, saying: “That would make me way too sad to answer.”
But soon adds: “I said it would make me too sad to answer but it’s also one of my favourite things to imagine. It’s actually one of my favourite places to visit.”
22nd January 2008. A true star was taken. A man whose smile lit up the screen. An actor who put everything into his performances and wowed fans time after time. Four years later, he is still truly missed.
RIP Heath Ledger.
I had never been emotional about an actor’s or celebrity’s death before, but when she told me, I broke down. I remember crying and checking all the news sources to see what had happened. I then watched all of his movies that I owned and I couldn’t believe that such a talented actor had died. Through his acting I felt that I had known him myself, it felt as if I had lost a friend. I miss you, Heath.
As a optimistic person who believes in some sort of string of fateful occurances that are still marked purely by chance I find it hard as a loving fan of Heath’s to come to any sort of conclusion. I think I definitely know, to an extent, and regard this as a hopeful truth, that someone of such irrevocable talent needed to die a young death because his offerings to the world were just too great. And I believe that because you left us with such a legacy in film and as a beautiful person and because you daughter gave you so much peace if only for two short years, I believe you made a mark on this world that will never be diminished. I truly believe that, but I’m sad. I probably have no idea about the pain your family members and friends have felt through the past four years, it’s true, but I’m sad that you left your child while both of you were in your own rights so young. I’m sad that such a tremendous light went out so fast. I’m sad and scared that you didn’t find peace in your final days. I’m sad that you’re gone and that nobody can physically know of your crooked smile any longer. I’m sad. But then I remember that so many of us were given a chance to know you through the screen, and those close to you knew you and loved you, and I suppose the gift you gave to the world and the loss that is felt now kind of measures out in some odd way. As someone who never met you, was just twelve when you died and admittedly didn’t always follow you career in your life as closely as an avid fan, you’ve still brought so much joy to me. I’m going to miss you for a very long time, and I’m going to always look up to you for how successfuly you fullfilled your dreams, for the personality the public was so lucky to have witnessed, for the characters you fullfilled, the stories you told and the charisma that forever will have a place in this world. I hope that you’re in peace now in your own version of Cottlesoe or Bondi or L.A or Brooklyn.
Rest In Peace, Heath Andrew Ledger. 04.04.1979 - 22.01.2008
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